Ten

I feel like I should blog, but I’m not sure what about because I forgot, so I decided to hit up the one minute writer for a prompt. I didn’t notice the Friday Fiction prompts before. They’re typically done in longer than a minute, it seems, but they’re still super short. So I’m picking one and going with it. Who knows, maybe it’ll be adaptable into a screenplay.

So the prompt for this is “ten”. Remember, this is just a solid 5 minutes of impromptu writing, so it carries no guarantees.

Alexander Hamilton gazed about the room.

She rubbed her thumb over his face. The perfectly curled ceremonial hair seemed to contrast the messy, small efficiency that surrounded her.

The girl sat on her futon bed, surrounded by things strewn about. A magazine. Textbooks. Some papers. Laptop. Bills. Mostly bills. The studio was a box with a window, a desk, and little more. The closed door hinted at more, but only a small bathroom and kitchenette lay beyond it.

The girl sat perfectly indian style on the bed, looking at the ten dollar bill in front of her. She moved her hand back into her lap. She seemed far away as she met Alexander’s gaze back.

My last ten dollars, she thought.

How did this happen? Didn’t I plan? How can I survive the week on ten dollars?

The girl was young with light skin and dark hair. Her face was blank, but her eyes were disappointed. Disappointed in herself, mostly. In the corner of her room, out of sight, was a framed degree. She thought about all that time and money she spent in college. All that work for a better life.

And now I have ten dollars for 6 days. Not even $2 a day.

She decided to make a list of everything that wouldn’t be paid this week.

Car Payment – $200
Student Loan Payment – $145
Groceries – $50
Gas – $20

She stopped. She was overwhelming herself and hadn’t even gotten to the tough ones. Internet. Electricity.

I can’t go to work if I don’t have gas in my car. I can’t live in here without electricity. Can I go 6 days on bread and peanut butter? Yes, but the bread is going bad.

Stop.

She surveyed the room. Her belongings. Very few. Framed photos and signs of friends and family are absent. No one to help me, she thought.

She glanced back at the stiff, new ten dollar bill. Then she glanced out her window. The snowy wonderland outside beckoned mysteriously. It seemed so rich and new. So pristine. There was a whole world outside her tiny box and her tiny problems. She rose up from the bed, letting the papers fall where they may. Alexander hit the floor face down.

She opened her window, her only window, and stuck her head outside into the cold afternoon air. A biting wind blew her hair back. She seemed to take in this world and replace her own, if only for a moment. She closed her eyes and breathed the cold. She let the cold air into her mouth and lungs, nipping at her nose and eyes. The cold was pure, nearly unbearable pure.

She leaned back inside and slammed the window shut. Stood for a moment, returning her sense to the stuffy box she knew as “home”. She walked slowly back to the bed, a new glint in her eyes. Was it hope? Inspiration? Confidence? Or was it acceptance?

She returned to the bed, grabbing the thin, papery ten dollar bill as she sat back. She leaned against the wall and laid Alexander across her lap. She grabbed a pack of cigarettes from her side and took one out – the last one. Lit it. Took a drag. The smoke danced around Alex’s face. She lifted the bill up and held it between in thumb and forefinger delicately, looking closer and closer at the presidential portrait. He kept the same blase expression no matter what she felt. She felt a twinge of jealousy for a moment.

She took the lit cigarette out of her mouth and ignited the corner of the bill. The paper hesitated, then grabbed onto the fire and fueled it. The bill slowly transformed from currency to ash. The girl held the bill and watched it burn. Her face had warmed, but her eyes remained cold and determined.

Alexander’s face was turned to dust, but somehow he didn’t care.

oscar predictions

here are my oscar predictions with a bit of commentary. this is gonna be a long one, so i put it behind this cut. clicky clicky to read more…

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State of the Union

I thought the State of the Union was one of Obama’s best speeches so far. And as expected, the GOP response was just ridiculous. Instead of spending my own time and effort writing a response to their response, I found this on Facebook this morning. It is written by my smartest friend, Cameron Huffman. You’ll probably be reading his book someday. Or voting for him.

Yeah, you’re right. I should ignore everything he said about reducing the deficit, ending the wars, passing healthcare reform, improving education, building an infrastructure based off of clean energy, and ending the bullshit partisan games that are ruining this country before our apathetic eyes.

I mean what was I thinking? Charge bailed-out banks that still give out bonuses larger than their profits? Regulate the industries that freely brought the masses to their knees while lining the pockets of the few? Socialist bastard.

It’s been one whole year and has yet to wipe out the record deficit created by two wars and constant tax cuts placed into a budget unconstrained by all that “pay-as-you-go” nonsense. What the hell has he been doing this entire time? The de-regulated financial industry completely burned to the ground, I know, but still. He really should not have followed through with the bailout that the Bush administration created. So what if the majority of it has already been paid back? Would we be in an economic depression the likes of which we cannot even fathom? Well, yeah, but you bet your ass our deficit might have been a little bit smaller!

For a second I thought keeping our financial system going might have saved a job or two. Thank God the GOP opened my eyes. How wrong I was! I was even so naive as to think some of the job losses were a natural part of our country’s economic shift to a post-industrial state (in which case a revitalized emphasis on education would provide displaced industrial workers a place in our new economic structure). Obama is clearly at fault here. Put people to work rebuilding our crumbling roads, electrical grids and airports? Build nuclear power plants, wind farms, and solar panels thereby creating jobs and renewable energy we can generate ourselves? Jesus Christ, that hippy must think this is Mexico and it’s the 1960s again!

His pleas for bipartisanship were an absolute waste of breath. Work together? With people who feel differently about things than I do? Encourage a meaningful rhetoric underscored with mutual respect? This guy is crazy. It’s impeachment time. It’s almost as if he thinks government exists to serve something higher than itself. He clearly is delusional. Maybe even mentally ill. Really.

And, honestly, for him to claim that “just saying no all the time” isn’t leadership? Really, Mr. Obama? And what has just saying “Yes” all the time gotten you, sir? “Yes, we can have health care for all” “Yes, we can make it affordable to go to college” “Yes, we can become energy independent” “Yes, we can end the war and bloodshed in Iraq and Afghanistan” It got him nothing but the 6th largest margin of victory ever in a presidential election and the largest margin of victory ever for a non-incumbent. If you think that a presidential election is a true mark of public opinion, well, there is just no hope for you.

What I don’t think he understands is that most of the problems he wants to solve have been around for decades! They were passed down to us by generations of politicians unwilling to take the risks associated with making touch decisions. He really expects us to just put an end to this tradition? Mr. Obama, why do you hate America?

Listen, Obama, and listen good: People have always died because they cannot afford medical treatment. The military is something we have always blindly poured money into. We have always been willing to sacrifice any number of our rights in the name of defeating terrorism. The national debt has always grown while the gap between rich and poor has expanded. The quality of our education has always gone down. Women have always made less than men in equal positions. Homosexuals have always been forbidden from marrying. Special interests have always grown more and more influential within our government. You think we want to change that? No, Mr. Obama, we like it this way. We aren’t about to let you meddle with our way of doing things.

Bob McDonnell allowed me to see the light when he said “Today, the federal government is simply trying to do too much.” I see now how ignorant I was in expecting my government to solve the problems that have a direct impact on myself and future generations. Doing nothing is the answer (and you can’t spell “nothing” without “no”).

So, Mr. Obama, you take your socialist, left-wing, nazi, fascist, anti-American, Muslim, gay agenda and shove it up your ass.

If I want healthcare I’ll go to Canada. If I want an education I’ll go to China. This is AMERICA. You just make sure I always have a job with benefits and a gun and then you shut the hell up.

Don’t you hate it..

..when you walk into a room and forget why you went in? That’s how I feel right now. I opened wordpress with the intention of blogging about something, and then I forgot why I did. I guess I’m in it now, I may as well write SOMETHING. A lot of people make the mistake of starting a blog and thinking they have nothing to say. They don’t realize that none of us have anything to say. The trick is to blog daily, weekly, whatever..regularly. You eventually have things to talk about…maybe. I’m just going to fill this entry with random thoughts of the moment.

1. I love editing in Final Cut. I am very aware of the shortcomings of FCP, but Avid and Premiere have similar or worse shortcomings. It’s exciting to be in the middle of a growing industry. When I was 15ish and reading Moviemaker magazine, there were articles about how the prospect of shooting real movies just on video is coming and how amazing that will be. I distinctly remember reading these things. It’s cool to be at a point where I could possibly process and edit RED camera footage..film quality video.
2. I hate winter. Especially January. All I want to do is sit around, eat, and sleep. It’s like hibernation. january is the WORST.
3. I have a lot of books to read and they’re all about video.
4. I really want to see Romeo and Juliet at the IRT. It just opened this week. I haven’t seen the play in its entirety since I was in it in 6th grade. I had to read it in high school but I knew it so well I doubt I actually did read it. For the record, I played Lady Montague and I had approximately three lines. That was the only play I was in that had actual costumes that didn’t suck.
5. Speaking of which, I miss being in plays. I don’t know that I could actually be in them anymore because I enjoy behind the scenes so much. And also after I quit waitressing my memorization skills have disappeared completely. It would be fun to be in a smaller play, probably. Unless I have developed crippling stage fright.
6. TV has improved so much since I was little, I think. I mean, in the 80s, would you buy a television music score and listen to it? I don’t think so. The production quality and level of storytelling is completely amazing.
7. I love editing an audio file to cut parts out or make a loop. I love when I just make a cut where I THINK it might work and it actually becomes perfect.
8. I’m still trying to figure out where to run. I am running all three of those freaking miles in May.
9. I’m hoping to be able to volunteer with the Indianapolis International Film Festival this year.
10. It’s pretty sickening how ignorant Americans are about Haiti. I mean when they say that we shouldn’t send aid there because people need aid here. Someone should try watching CNN once in a while.
11. Which leads me to my next statement. I know it’s a really cliche, young, naive, liberal thing to say but…if I had the chance, I really would move to a different country.

golden globe predictions

before i post this, i want to quote roger ebert on twitter: @ebertchicago “Golden Globes nominate “Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs” but not “Ponyo,” renewing their certification as flywheels.”

that being said, i still love awards season and here are my predictions in bold:

1. BEST MOTION PICTURE – DRAMA
a. AVATAR
Lightstorm Entertainment; Twentieth Century Fox
b. THE HURT LOCKER
Voltage Pictures; Summit Entertainment
c. INGLOURIOUS BASTERDS
The Weinstein Company/Universal Pictures/A Band Apart/Zehnte Babelsberg GmbH Production; The
Weinstein Company/Universal Pictures
d. PRECIOUS: BASED ON THE NOVEL PUSH BY SAPPHIRE
A Lee Daniels Entertainment / Smokewood Entertainment Group Production;
Lionsgate
e. UP IN THE AIR
Paramount Pictures; Paramount Pictures

2. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTRESS IN A MOTION PICTURE –
DRAMA
a. EMILY BLUNT
THE YOUNG VICTORIA
b. SANDRA BULLOCK
THE BLIND SIDE
c. HELEN MIRREN
THE LAST STATION
d. CAREY MULLIGAN
AN EDUCATION
e. GABOUREY SIDIBE
PRECIOUS: BASED ON THE NOVEL PUSH BY SAPPHIRE

3. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTOR IN A MOTION PICTURE – DRAMA
a. JEFF BRIDGES
CRAZY HEART
b. GEORGE CLOONEY
UP IN THE AIR
c. COLIN FIRTH
A SINGLE MAN
d. MORGAN FREEMAN
INVICTUS
e. TOBEY MAGUIRE
BROTHERS

4. BEST MOTION PICTURE – COMEDY OR MUSICAL
a. (500) DAYS OF SUMMER
Watermark Pictures; Fox Searchlight Pictures
b. THE HANGOVER
Warner Bros. Pictures; Warner Bros. Pictures
c. IT’S COMPLICATED
Relativity Media, Scott Rudin Productions; Universal Pictures
d. JULIE & JULIA
Columbia Pictures; Sony Pictures Releasing
e. NINE
The Weinstein Company/Relativity Media/Lucamar Productions/Marc Platt Productions; The
Weinstein Company

5. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTRESS IN A MOTION PICTURE –
COMEDY OR MUSICAL
a. SANDRA BULLOCK
THE PROPOSAL
b. MARION COTILLARD
NINE
c. JULIA ROBERTS
DUPLICITY
d. MERYL STREEP
IT’S COMPLICATED
e. MERYL STREEP
JULIE & JULIA

6. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTOR IN A MOTION PICTURE –
COMEDY OR MUSICAL
a. MATT DAMON
THE INFORMANT!
b. DANIEL DAY-LEWIS
NINE
c. ROBERT DOWNEY JR
SHERLOCK HOLMES
d. JOSEPH GORDON-LEVITT
(500) DAYS OF SUMMER
e. MICHAEL STUHLBARG
A SERIOUS MAN

7. BEST ANIMATED FEATURE FILM
a. CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS
Columbia Pictures and Sony Pictures Animation; Sony Pictures Releasing
b. CORALINE
Laika, Inc.; Focus Features
c. FANTASTIC MR. FOX
American Empirical Picture; Twentieth Century Fox
d. THE PRINCESS AND THE FROG
Walt Disney Pictures/Walt Disney Animation Studios; Walt Disney Studios Motion Pictures
e. UP
Walt Disney Pictures/PIXAR Animation Studios; Walt Disney Studios Motion Pictures

8. BEST FOREIGN LANGUAGE FILM
a. BAARIA (ITALY)
Medusa Film; Summit Entertainment
b. BROKEN EMBRACES (SPAIN)
El Deseo SA; Sony Pictures Classics
c. THE MAID (CHILE)
(LA NANA)
Forastero; Elephant Eye Films
d. A PROPHET (UN PROPHETE) (FRANCE)
Chic Films/Page 114/Why Not Productions; Sony Pictures Classics
e. THE WHITE RIBBON (GERMANY)
(DAS WEISSE BAND – EINE DEUTSCHE KINDERGESCHICHTE)
X Filme Creative Pool/Les Films Du Losange/Lucky Red/Wega Film; Sony Pictures Classics

9. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTRESS IN A SUPPORTING ROLE IN A
MOTION PICTURE
a. PENÉLOPE CRUZ
NINE
b. VERA FARMIGA
UP IN THE AIR
c. ANNA KENDRICK
UP IN THE AIR
d. MO’NIQUE
PRECIOUS: BASED ON THE NOVEL PUSH BY SAPPHIRE
e. JULIANNE MOORE
A SINGLE MAN

10. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTOR IN A SUPPORTING ROLE IN A
MOTION PICTURE
a. MATT DAMON
INVICTUS
b. WOODY HARRELSON
THE MESSENGER
c. CHRISTOPHER PLUMMER
THE LAST STATION
d. STANLEY TUCCI
THE LOVELY BONES
e. CHRISTOPH WALTZ
INGLOURIOUS BASTERDS

11. BEST DIRECTOR – MOTION PICTURE
a. KATHRYN BIGELOW
THE HURT LOCKER
b. JAMES CAMERON
AVATAR
c. CLINT EASTWOOD
INVICTUS
d. JASON REITMAN
UP IN THE AIR
e. QUENTIN TARANTINO
INGLOURIOUS BASTERDS

12. BEST SCREENPLAY – MOTION PICTURE
a. NEILL BLOMKAMP, TERRI TATCHELL
DISTRICT 9
b. MARK BOAL
THE HURT LOCKER
c. NANCY MEYERS
IT’S COMPLICATED
d. JASON REITMAN, SHELDON TURNER
UP IN THE AIR
e. QUENTIN TARANTINO
INGLOURIOUS BASTERDS

13. BEST ORIGINAL SCORE – MOTION PICTURE
a. MICHAEL GIACCHINO
UP
b. MARVIN HAMLISCH
THE INFORMANT!
c. JAMES HORNER
AVATAR
d. ABEL KORZENIOWSKI
A SINGLE MAN
e. KAREN O, CARTER BURWELL
WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE

14. BEST ORIGINAL SONG – MOTION PICTURE
a. «CINEMA ITALIANO» – NINE
Music & Lyrics by: Maury Yeston
b. «I WANT TO COME HOME» – EVERYBODY’S FINE
Music & Lyrics by: Paul McCartney
c. «I SEE YOU» – AVATAR
Music by: James Horner, Simon Franglen
Lyrics by: James Horner, Simon Franglen, Kuk Harrell
d. «THE WEARY KIND (THEME FROM CRAZY HEART)» – CRAZY HEART
Music & Lyrics by: Ryan Bingham, T Bone Burnett
e. «WINTER» – BROTHERS
Music by: U2
Lyrics by: Bono

15. BEST TELEVISION SERIES – DRAMA
a. BIG LOVE (HBO)
Anima Sola Productions and Playtone in association with HBO Entertainment
b. DEXTER (SHOWTIME)
Showtime Presents, John Goldwyn Productions, The Colleton Company, Clyde Phillips Productions
c. HOUSE (FOX)
Universal Media Studios in association with Heel and Toe Films, Shore Z Productions and Bad Hat
Harry
d. MAD MEN (AMC)
AMC
e. TRUE BLOOD (HBO)
Your Face Goes Here Entertainment in association with HBO Entertainment

16. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTRESS IN A TELEVISION SERIES –
DRAMA
a. GLENN CLOSE
DAMAGES
b. JANUARY JONES
MAD MEN
c. JULIANNA MARGULIES
THE GOOD WIFE
d. ANNA PAQUIN
TRUE BLOOD
e. KYRA SEDGWICK
THE CLOSER

17. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTOR IN A TELEVISION SERIES –
DRAMA
a. SIMON BAKER
THE MENTALIST
b. MICHAEL C. HALL
DEXTER
c. JON HAMM
MAD MEN
d. HUGH LAURIE
HOUSE
e. BILL PAXTON
BIG LOVE

18. BEST TELEVISION SERIES – COMEDY OR MUSICAL
a. 30 ROCK (NBC)
Universal Media Studios in association with Broadway Video and Little Stranger Inc.
b. ENTOURAGE (HBO)
Leverage and Closest to the Hole Productions in association with HBO Entertainment
c. GLEE (FOX)
Twentieth Century Fox Television
d. MODERN FAMILY (ABC)
Twentieth Century Fox Television
e. THE OFFICE (NBC)
Universal Media Studios, Deedle Dee Productions, Reveille LLC

19. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTRESS IN A TELEVISION SERIES –
COMEDY OR MUSICAL
a. TONI COLLETTE
UNITED STATES OF TARA
b. COURTENEY COX
COUGAR TOWN
c. EDIE FALCO
NURSE JACKIE
d. TINA FEY
30 ROCK
e. LEA MICHELE
GLEE

20. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTOR IN A TELEVISION SERIES –
COMEDY OR MUSICAL
a. ALEC BALDWIN
30 ROCK
b. STEVE CARELL
THE OFFICE
c. DAVID DUCHOVNY
CALIFORNICATION
d. THOMAS JANE
HUNG
e. MATTHEW MORRISON
GLEE

21. BEST MINI-SERIES OR MOTION PICTURE MADE FOR TELEVISION
a. GEORGIA O’KEEFFE (LIFETIME TELEVISION)
Sony Pictures Television
b. GREY GARDENS (HBO)
Specialty Films and Locomotive in association with HBO Films
c. INTO THE STORM (HBO)
Scott Free and Rainmark Films Production in association with the BBC and HBO Films
d. LITTLE DORRIT (PBS)
Masterpiece/BBC Co-production
e. TAKING CHANCE (HBO)
Motion Picture Corporation of America and Civil Dawn Pictures in association with HBO Films

22. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTRESS IN A MINI-SERIES OR
MOTION PICTURE MADE FOR TELEVISION
a. JOAN ALLEN
GEORGIA O’KEEFFE
b. DREW BARRYMORE
GREY GARDENS
c. JESSICA LANGE
GREY GARDENS
d. ANNA PAQUIN
THE COURAGEOUS HEART OF IRENA SENDLER
e. SIGOURNEY WEAVER
PRAYERS FOR BOBBY

23. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTOR IN A MINI-SERIES OR MOTION
PICTURE MADE FOR TELEVISION
a. KEVIN BACON
TAKING CHANCE
b. KENNETH BRANAGH
WALLANDER: ONE STEP BEHIND
c. CHIWETEL EJIOFOR
ENDGAME
d. BRENDAN GLEESON
INTO THE STORM
e. JEREMY IRONS
GEORGIA O’KEEFFE

24. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTRESS IN A SUPPORTING ROLE IN A
SERIES, MINI-SERIES OR MOTION PICTURE MADE FOR TELEVISION
a. JANE ADAMS
HUNG
b. ROSE BYRNE
DAMAGES
c. JANE LYNCH
GLEE
d. JANET McTEER
INTO THE STORM
e. CHLOË SEVIGNY
BIG LOVE

25. BEST PERFORMANCE BY AN ACTOR IN A SUPPORTING ROLE IN A
SERIES, MINI-SERIES OR MOTION PICTURE MADE FOR TELEVISION
a. MICHAEL EMERSON
LOST
b. NEIL PATRICK HARRIS
HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER
c. WILLIAM HURT
DAMAGES
d. JOHN LITHGOW
DEXTER
e. JEREMY PIVEN
ENTOURAGE

A few things to note.

I actually have three blogs going right now. Well, four if you count the main nathanandkylee.com news feed I never update. They’re all for different purposes and I keep them separate. But I’ve always been a fan of the public recording of thoughts for others to access, so here are my other two blogs. I don’t mind linking them from here, but I won’t put this blog on those.

kyleesportfolio.com/blog.html is my “professional” blog where I record thoughts about my profession and keep it less personalish, more business. I could probably copy/paste that stuff here if I thought about it, but I usually don’t.

new blog, as of last night: filmgrimage.wordpress.com. it goes alongside the pro blog, but it’s a personal journey type of a thing, so it’s also to be kept separate. “film-grimage is a long journey or search of great filmic significance. A journey to a shrine of the importance of cinema, in any capacity.” But you can read about it on the site. We made the word up.

also, new life goal. nathan has decided to join me actually. this is the fourth year i will be participating in the 500 festival 5K. i’ve always walked it. we’ve always had a fair amount of ease doing so. this year, i want to attempt to run the whole thing. other internet nerds with a sedentary lifestyle have used the couch-to-5K program with great success, so i have loaded up the iphone app and i’m trying to figure out a place to run that isn’t crowded or icy. i think we can do it. it’s only three miles.

ten years

there is a hashtag on twitter going right now – #10yearsago – that i used in one of my tweets. basically i said i was 13 and had no idea what i wanted out of life. it’s been interesting to search that tag and see what other people were doing ten years ago.

but that’s not the point. i was thinking about that tag when i was coming home today. it seems that everything that has made me who i am today happened in the last ten years. i know so much development and character building happened from age 0-13, but it feels like everything i can recall has happened in the last ten years.

i think about where i was ten years ago. i was 13. i had been using a computer for a year. i hadn’t even started high school yet. i knew some of the things i wanted, but i didn’t know how i would ever obtain them. i didn’t know what i wanted to do as a career. i was always interested in the big city, and i hoped that maybe i would end up in new york. i calculated that if i went to a 4 year college, i would graduate in 2009. it seemed like forever from then. there were parts of life that i read about on the internet that seemed beyond what i would ever do – simple things that adults take for granted, like going to a really nice coffee shop, or having a hobby outside of what you could convince your parents to let you do.

i feel like despite all the obstacles that have come up and still continue to come up, i am living the life that the 13 year old me would have LOVED. i have achieved a lot of what i dreamed for. i changed everything about my life.

today, i got up at 10 am and made myself and my husband breakfast. i got ready and went to yoga at a studio downtown, and took a class led by my friend. the first friend i ever met in indianapolis, actually. then we sat while we did paperwork and chatting in the empty locked up studio, and went to find some food downtown. we navigated up and down sidestreets and talked about our favorite local places. we sat in a pub next to conseco and talked about yoga for two hours. then i came home to my cats, my nice apartment, my mac laptop and flatscreen tv and i await the arrival of friends to ring in 2010 together.

i find the fact that i’m living the life the 13 year old me would have died for to be very comforting. even though i’m not where i want to be yet, it’s nice to see some progress and take a step back to see what can happen in ten years.

here’s to being a millionare in 2020 :P

My Year in Pictures

2009 ends next week, and we start a new year and new decade, which is really really weird. This is only the second time I can remember actually changing decades. The last time was when we jumped from 1999 to 2000, and the decade switch was overshadowed by the century switch. Not that any of it matters, since time is just an arbitrary human construct. And the decade actually switches over TECHNICALLY in one year. WHATEVER. But still, it is kind of…weird. A lot of stuff happened this decade for me. I don’t really recall what happened in specific years, other than starting and finishing high school, meeting Nathan, September 11th, when I started video production and blogging, moving away, getting married….I went into the new decade as finishing my 8th grade year and I saw the 00’s as a whole series of opportunities waiting to be taken. I couldn’t even grasp it, but it was roughly structured out due to school and the fact I knew I would go to a traditional college. Now, as I enter the 10’s, I have absolutely no plan. I know things I want to do, things that will probably happen, or where I’d like to be by 2020, but 2010-2019 is literally a gigantic question mark. I’ve never had that, and it 40% bothers me and 55% excites me and 5% goes back and forth.

Also, I turn 30 in 2017. WAT.

Anyway, here’s a little year in review in photos, since that’s the best way to review anything anyway.

January: Started work on my senior capstone and final semester of college.
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February: Did little else than work on my massive pile of homework, wedding related tasks, and capstone. Yikes that was a huge to do list.
March: Finished shooting my capstone, went to Michigan with Aaron and Katie to shoot a documentary
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April: Spent an absurd amount of time in the labs rotoscoping and editing my capstone and documentary, made fun of conservative tea parties, had my bridal shower thrown for me by BreAnne, had my last day of school ever.
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May: Participated in capstone night, graduated from IUPUI, had my bachelorette party, got a job in video production and ended employment at the zoo ( :( )
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June: Had a pre-wedding celebration with family at the zoo, got married to Nathan, went to Vegas for our honeymoon
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July: Settled in normalcy and a fulltime job, moved to a two bedroom apartment on the far northside, discovered the greatness of geocaching
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August: Saw Austin get married
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September: Began baking more regularly as a hobby, got the opportunity to use a DSLR for portraits (yoga portraits for Amanda, senior pictures for Katee, photo coverage of Nathan’s dad’s wedding). Turned 23.
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October: Picked apples and baked even more
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November: Not a whole lot.
December: Not much, other than found out one of my favorite people, BreAnne, is now engaged.

It seems this year was completely insane until we moved, then it settled into regular ol’ life again. I’m hoping that next year we manage to have the resources to get out of the state a couple of times, if only for a weekend. Then we can have something to look forward to in 2010 since otherwise we’ve achieved a lot of milestones for a while.

I would really like to travel by air at least once this year. I would love to go to Comic-Con in San Diego. I would also love to go to the Lord of the Rings concert at Carnegie Hall in NYC in October. Katee is officially enlisted in the army (she leaves on July 5th lol), which means we might have the opportunity to drive or fly (I’m thinking drive) to southern Oklahoma in early September if she goes straight into Basic without much waiting in Reception. Nathan is applying to go back to school this fall as well. So we have some things that could possibly be coming up to look forward to, which is nice. At this point, on the second or third official day of winter, I’m really just looking forward to the first spring thaw – not the teaser where one day is 65 and the next day it snows, I’m talking the first day in an official trend of warm weather. That alone almost makes me love spring more than summer.

waitressing :: a retrospective

i was talking with a friend about waitressing. we both have a history of being servers, and we were reminiscing about our old jobs that led us to hate humanity so much. i liked being a server for the most part, actually. it’s just that waiting tables is such a manic occupation. the good times are very fun, and the bad times are VERY VERY BAD. and so much of your job is dependent on the crew you work with. if they are selfish, catty, morons, you end up fixing their mistakes and dealing with their gossip more than taking care of tables. you do end up seeing some pretty crazy stuff as a server. the one thing i really didn’t like was sidework. in every establishment i’ve known people to work in, each server was assigned a job to be finished before they left. this is typically some kind of maintenance that needs to be completed so the next servers (either the next shift or the next morning) can effectively do their jobs. usually you would be taken off tables about a half hour before your scheduled ending time so you could do the work. it was in your best interest to complete the task as quickly as possible because you were still only making your crappy hourly rate (likely $2.13), and you wanted to leave. because of this, a lot of servers end up half-assing their side work. and half-assed sidework leads to a crappy shift as you realize that soups are still frozen instead of being rotated to thaw, or chili heating pans are dried up instead of filled with water and therefore the chili is being scorched. you usually would realize this in the thick of a mad rush. so in the middle of being triple-seated, you have to run into the walk-in and grab all kinds of things to quickly put together what you need.

here’s the greatest hits of wins and fails from my 3 years of waiting tables:

  • taking cover in the walk-in during a tornado warning
  • crack addict cleaning out his crack pipe in the bathroom
  • working with a russian girl and an indy homeless guy, and seeing them spontaneously break out in a conversation in fluent french.
  • a giant lady eating enough food for 3 people while feeding her kids vienna sausages, then cleaning up the sausages and congealed gunk from the floor when they left.
  • cleaning up a giant pile of kid puke in the middle of a dinner rush. and getting a 10% tip from the kid’s mom who helpfully stated “i’m a nurse. you should wear gloves when you clean that up.” no kidding, and thanks for the assistance nurse vaginaface.
  • seeing a hamburger thrown at a crying server.
  • working circle city classic 10AM-10PM and walking home with $25 ($5 of which was from 1 lady). also not being able to go out the front door because there were so many people, and walking home while being called racial slurs (CC classic is an african-american event attended largely at night by younger people).
  • having an idiot server try to pass me a tray of shakes into my non-dominant tray hand and having them fall all over in front of corporate vps (they knew what happened and left me a huge tip)
  • being called out during lunch rush by the overall vp of operations for the company and having him tell me i was the best server he’d seen in a long time. after every other employee and manager had been pestering and butt-kissing him hardcore the whole time, while i just smiled and said hello. my short manager was so mad.
  • working gencon. 6PM – 9AM a couple of nights. making so much money. walking to work that evening, then walking home to my apartment downtown. this was 2 weeks after i moved out of my parents house. it was an amazing sense of freedom and independence to work 14 hours and then walk home with hundreds of dollars to my own place, seeing what the city is really like early in the morning on a sunday.
  • lots of other crazy customers. the stalker who would only let kathy wait on him. playboy who liked to look at playboys while he ate. white girls, the black guy who looked at white girl porn and touched himself. the campus crusade, who came in huge numbers and left huge tips for me and mandy. the first crazy customer i had in indy, who hated mustard and screamed it looked like baby poop.
  • meeting dakota fanning, ron artest, a couple of random other people. seeing the mayor leave a cheap ass tip.

it was a good time. i think everyone should wait tables at some point. you learn a lot about society.

donating life is better than donating money!

since school has ended and i’ve been able to do some things on my long list of things to do that i read about here and there, i’ve begun a couple of new things.

the first one i started in september – regular blood donations. i have been meaning to schedule my next donation since i’ve been eligible for a month now, but i got sick and i have to wait until i’m better before i can actually donate again. i can’t remember if i blogged about blood donation. in short, everyone who meets the basic requirements should be donating blood regularly. it takes like a half hour to an hour maximum depending on your blood flow and the crowd at the center. your blood can be split into three different products, which means it can help save three different people. you’re eligible to donate again roughly every two months. it’s really not painful and if you’re “afraid of needles”, suck it up. it might be YOU in the ER one day bleeding by the gallonful.

the other thing is i joined: the national bone marrow donor registry (www.marrow.org). bone marrow is needed to save people dying from diseases like leukemia and cancer. according to the website, 70% of donors do not have family members who are an eligible match. if you were in a situation where your loved one was in desperate need of bone marrow to save their life and there was no match, i’m sure you would hope that everyone that possibly could would join the registry.

what being in the registry means: i will be a send a kit with cotton swabs in which i will take cell samples from the inside of my mouth. i’ll send the kit back and be officially entered into the registry. when a patient needs bone marrow, a search will be done on the registry. if i’m a match, i’ll be contacted (usually with other people), brought in for further information, tested, and then selected from the final batch of people who matched to donate bone marrow. i can back out at any time.

bone marrow donation isn’t painful. there are two ways this is done. the website explains this in technical terms, but basically the first way is similar to plasma donation. you’re given an injection for 5 days to bring the bone marrow stuff into your blood stream, and then it’s separated out like plasma (the parts they don’t need are put back in you). the other way is outpatient surgery. bone marrow is removed from your pelvic bone – you aren’t put under, just regional anesthetic. some discomfort while walking is common, but there is no pain during the procedure itself.

i’ve been pondering becoming a part of this registry for a while, and i never really read enough into it to see what a bone marrow donation was like. i always assumed it was really painful. knowing that it’s just a minor inconvenience makes it even easier to join. also, there is usually a $50 fee to join to cover processing, but a promo code is attached to the form right now that makes joining the registry free.

i think everyone should look at that website and consider participating. imagine if your son or daughter or friend or whoever was dying, and a bone marrow donation from an anonymous donor saved their life. you can’t imagine the kind of desperation a family goes through when they know they need a tissue donation and just can’t find someone to do a simple outpatient procedure.

being a poor young person, it’s nice to still have some kind of charitable act to offer to the world.

(i’m also an organ donor but i think i’ll hang on to all of those until i’m not using them. )